Placement!

Tomorrow I start placement again, one week of antenatal followed by 3 weeks of intrapartum. I am nervous, as always, about what I am going to encounter - experiences and people particularly as a couple of experiences I had whilst I was at this hospital last time were ones that left me questioning whether I was right for midwifery, or whether midwifery was right for me. One was a distressing and disgusting forceps birth by a consultant and the other, a postpartum haemorrhage that could have ended in disaster... for both woman and baby.

I did a lot of soul-searching, questioning and crying trying to decipher where and why things ended as they did and going back there means reliving those events mostly because the PPH was the last birth I witnessed before I finished.

Expect me back tomorrow for a debrief :)